Tuesday, July 20, 2010

How our baby has changed my life...

Wow! I didn't realize how much Elijah would change my life. I knew that parenthood would be difficult but I didn't think that...

-the baby would take over our ENTIRE home. I'm not kidding. There is baby stuff everywhere. It seems that I pick up his things constantly and my home is a complete mess the next day. What in the world?
-Laundry is never ending!
-Breastfeeding is NOT a picnic in the park. It is the most painful thing ever. I'm not sure if it is as painful as contractions but it brings me to tears so it is pretty close. How can you bond with your baby when you are in pain? I just don't get it. I prefer pumping but I'm going to continue to try breastfeeding to see if it gets any better.
-Everything takes 10 times longer to get done. I finally got ready for the day and have breakfast by lunchtime. Am I ever going to get on a schedule or will I always be that slow. I guess he is only 2 weeks old and I'm still adjusting but holy cow.
-Goodbye sleep! I no longer sleep through the night. However, I do take a nap once in awhile and I get to sleep in till about 8:30 or 9. But, I don't think that counts when I only get about three hours of sleep.
-Long showers are in the past-I have to now hurry to shower because I'm afraid that Elijah will scream at the top of his lungs if I'm not by his side.
-I also don't feel too pretty anymore. Although my stomach is going back to normal and I can fit into some of my previous clothes I still feel like I have vomit and milk all over me.

After looking at all of the negative points, I feel blessed to have Elijah Kai in my life. I love cuddling with him when he is sad or happy. I love that he is starting to recognize me and can't seem to function when I'm away. I know he loves me and I love him so much. He is a joy in our lives. I'm so grateful that Adrian is such a wonderful daddy to him. He has been so helpful and comforting lately so I appreciate him as well.


Jennie said...

I remember feeling like with my first baby that breastfeeding was the secret everyone kept from me because it was so hard. I feel like it is harder than labor because labor last for only hours where breastfeeding goes on for months. It gets better though, hopefully.

Just wait till he is smiling and laughing at you whenever he sees you. So worth it.

Finding Joy in the Journey said...

Aww Emilee! You are doing great! It's definitely an adjustment, but you'll get a routine down. It may take a month or two. Elijah is lucky to have such a great mom and dad. Keep up the good work! I never thought about them taking over the whole house, but it's so true. Even now when I look in all the rooms, there is something kid related. I guess you just don't notice as much as time goes on.

Hadley Family Clan! said...

I know after I had the girls I had the same feelings and emotions. Esp I know you and how you like everything to be clean and organized( I am the same way) and it's hard when you have baby stuff all over. Breastfeeding is painful there's no way around saying it's not it just takes time but hang in there it will get better. Props that you can already fit into some of your clothes after only 2 weeks. I could after 2 months lol. Parenting is such a wonderful blessing yet it can be challenging at time. As he get's on a schedule and you get more sleep it will make a world of difference in your life as a mom:)

Amber said...

I'm sure that you're doing a great job. It's very hard for the first few months to get anything done, but like the others have said, you'll eventually get into a routine. Breastfeeding is tough at first. Hopefully it will get better for you.